disappointed
Lately I'm surprised at how everything seems to twist its way in my mind that no matter what I do or don't do, I'm constantly thinking of how I'm letting someone down. If I screw around at work or take too long a lunch, I'm letting my boss down. If I don't stay up half the night and spend time with my boyfriend, I'm letting him down. If I don't eat, breathe, and dream science I'm letting my future self down. Even if I do eat, breathe, and dream science I'm not eating, breathing, dreaming the science I need to (physics and orgo) or math and I'm letting future me down, and present me as I spend at least half an hour a day chiding myself about not doing more. If I don't do the dishes I'm letting my dad down. And on and on to infinity. I can't imagine why it's so hard for me to grasp that no one really cares about these things, yet still I feel the only thing I really have to myself is running, and if I don't do that daily I'm letting me down and my boyfriend down and that's just ridiculous. When will I stop being so disappointed in myself and blaming others for it?
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hun, you have to give yourself a break, else you'll go insane before you even get to med school. and there is a very long road after that, so you have to take it easy while you can.